Trying to get a project that stalled in the final steps cleaned up and tied off is kinda like managing software developers or herding cats … The client wants to get the project done, but takes forever for the feedback loop, then because I have other things going on and this project is way outside of timelines so I have to sacrifice something else to get it done, or let it continue to eat my brain because it’s not done and the next actionable item is for me to get it done!!!

Gah!!!! Ok, so I will get this done today (no matter what) … It doesn’t matter if I have to work at it constantly until 3am … I will get my part done, and move this over to waiting for approval. But naturally, I have other things coming at me as soon as I think this, so I toss it into my list and set a due date on it (today) … That should motovate me (I don;t like going to bed until my list for the day is clear) …

Who knew that GTD would appeal to my strange sense of time like this? Will it stay this way, (I’m hoping it gets easier once I get more of the ‘stuff’ out of my head and into my system) … Right now tho, I’m finding all the things that have to get done because they have been spinning for so long. (Normal for the GTD (so I’m told)) … but when you start to see all the things you need to get done, and have been spinning …

It’s a little overwhelming, on the one hand you feel good because you know that your making steps for a bunch of things that you have kept trapped in your head, on the other hand some of the things you have been puttin goff for so long you feel like your going to have things to do forever … and you have to hold yourself accountable and that makes you a little miserable so your feeling good and rotten at the same time.

Ok, back to working …

Well it looks like that new project is a go, Kal, Geoff, and Myself met last night for a dinner meeting and went over some details, I’m not at liberty to say what the project is or is about, but it’s a pretty good idea, if I do say so myself, and considering all the ‘good ideas’ I hear, thats actually saying something.

We will be aiming for government grant cash, but have set aside a percentage of the company that we are willing to part with for VC … (Why I’m even considering the VC route again is a little beyond me, I guess I believe in the project that much) … But Geoff is confidant that raising funds won’t be an issue, and isn’t sure we will need to do the VC thing … But time will tell the tail.

I’m excited, but need to get some sleep (even though this goes live tomorrow AM … I’m writing it now, and I should get to bed before I end up in trouble)

I can feel the momentum building, I still have A LOT going on, and I’m not being nearly as productive as I need to be, but I AM improving, I am grateful for the good people that I work with and that have been so understanding so far of all the ‘stuff’ I’m dealing with. I do feel like i;m coming out of the ‘fog’ though and thats a good feeling, much better then the overwhelmed, oh gawd, stop the planet, I want off feeling that I have grown accustomed too over the past 8 months.

With some additional effort and a dash of luck, I;ll be out from under the looming soon.

The trick is to keep moving, it kinda reminds me of a phrase my mother told me… “If you’re going through hell … keep going.” and I have been, and as a result of my colleagues and friends, I have managed to not drown, and I’m grateful for that. Even better, I can feel the momentum and I know things are just going to keep getting better and better … Tomorrow’s meeting should prove insightful too … Will fill you in if and when I can.

Procrastination… it’s an art…

Being more aware of my thinking as of late, I see all of the things that I’m doing that are an actual effort on part of my brain to put things off … How strange is this? Why not just do the things and get them out of the way????

How do I unlearn this art form I have managed to pick up … I don’t want to be a procrastinator, I like getting things done, I feel GREAT when I do. so how did this happen?
Does it really matter? … That would (delving into the why of something as useless as procrastination) be just more of the same…

No more procrastinating … if you see me, remind me of this (expects to hear it from the guys at work).
I want to get things done!!!!!
Thats what I’m going to do right now … so thats it for today

I keep going, and going, and going … umm, I don’t mean like that (get your minds out of the gutter … although … oh look ! a bird!!! … See, I just realized that a whole month has already passed in 2009… Thats a whole month of blogging, * pats himself on the back for a job well done so far *. I would like to think that what I’m rambling about here is of interest to someone other then just myself, but it’s totally possible that I’m just diluting myself here too The point is, if your reading this and you want to hear me ramble about a specific topic, drop me a note… you can comment here (comments are moderated) or if you prefer, you can use the contact form on the main part of the site.

If you know me, you know that I’m a fairly unique individual and I have a bit of a slanted view on most things. From the meaning of life and my role in it, to the illusion of time and this physically manifest vibrational existence, and including the law of attraction and how thoughts become things, and the firm belief that the glass isn’t half full or half empty, it’s completely full (half liquid, half air, but no matter what you can not get any more volume in the glass itself).

So, seeing as I have been at this a month straight already (as my own personal challenge), I challenge you, the reader to give me some suggestions. Failure to do so will result in more of my ramblings the way I see fit to ramble about things, and I will be sure to include something on the dream-spell (13 moons), more GTD, more Back on Track Experiment, more on Polyphasic sleeping, personal development, traffic, face stabbing devices, commuting, retarded people, government, spring, mountain biking, road tripping, and just about anything else that I can come up with.

Let me be honest, I’m trying to coerce you (the readers) into a suggestion or two because it would be good for me to try writing about something that someone else suggests, and it’s sure to help me become a better writer / blogger. So … Give a guy some suggestions.

A prime example of why I need to be be more organized, and why the world needs ubiqx (project idea I have had form many years) … I made an appointment with a lady, but it got entered into my phone, my phone (being the normal variety and not one that I typically use to store appointments in because I don’t sync it with anything). End result, the meeting got forgot about (completely left my brain) until 30 minutes before the meeting, at which time my phone made a little jingle noise that caught my attention. But there was no way for me to get to the meeting on time, so I had to call and apologize, and then re-schedule.

Now if I was on top of things, I would have moved my appointment to my iCal and everything would have been gravy. But because I never use the schedule in my phone, I didn’t think of it. (Clearly another case for why I could use an iPhone). This is exactly he type of thing that drive me nuts, so I added a few things to my GTD schedule and with some luck that will be the last time I have to re-schedule an appointment because of a lack of organization on my part.

The GTD stuff really is simple to adopt, I have only been at it for a few days and already things are coming together, I can see the next steps required for all of the tasks on my plate and that gives me a lighter / good feeling. As long as I can keep with it, I know this is going to make a huge impact on my life. I will admit that I feel kinda dumb for not implementing these simple principals sooner, but I still know forgiveness for myself when I fail, so I trudge happily forward.

I’ve started taking advantage of my morning commute again, (I don’t do the driving in Wed, Thurs, or Fri) … This turns out to be an ideal time to make sure I’m caught up and review what I need to get done for the day. It also makes the ride in go uber quick, and makes me start the day off feeling productive.