Well I just noticed that my CSS is broken over here on the WordPress side of the site … I know it was when I added the header (also broken over here) … I will fix this week with some luck ….

I’m in need of a nice project/issue tracker that can be installed via FTP / Web interface only … I’m currently entertaining bug genie, but am open to suggestion … Ideally I would run RedMine and call it a day, but I have to deal with some strange limitations at the moment, and Don’t really want to do all the customization needed to get Mantis to look right…

Tomorrow is a BIG DAY …. Positive vibes from everyone please, just send me some thoughts of awesomeness if at all possible in the morning… I figure it can’t hurt and may just help.

Need to get to sleep…

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Well I figured I better provide an update to the back on track experiment seeing as time passes even if I’m not doing so great on my goals …

The trick is to be either more stubborn, or more stupid (depending on how you look at it) … I could quite easily call this experiment a failure, but I prefer to try and learn from my mistakes and keep failing forward … it’s that whole ready fire aim attitude I have…

More Debt, Less Paying work, missing Guitar practices, have only picked up 1 song so far (and should have picked up 4 by now), meditating daily (thats working for me), have been out on the bike, but not enough yet (lack of funds can damper the biking), still smoking.

So what to do?

Well let’s see what I’m not doing right and see if I can correct it mid flight rather then crashing the plane and starting over …

The great ones say (the great ones being Andrew Carnegie, Napoleon Hill, Henry Ford, Thomas Edison, Jack Canfield, Eckhart Tolle, Etc… ) They all say that I need to know what my chief aim and purpose in life is, I should write down my goals in a clear and concise manner, that I need to read aloud twice daily this statement of desire and I need to use my power of visualization to see things the way I want them to be as if I have already achieved them.

Considering that part of my ideal happens to be displayed as Tony Stark’s lifestyle, I would say thats a pretty tall order to fill … But I like a good challenge.
So I’m going to have another crack at this… Because I didn’t really do things the way that ALL of the great successful people say that I should, and the point is to listen to what the successful people say right? What do I have to loose from writing it down and reading it aloud everyday? People already think I’m nuts…

Ok,
I’m going to start out with discovering my chief aim and purpose in life. Because thats just so simple for everyone (lmao). Then I’m going to write out my goals in a way that I can repeat them to myself (aloud) daily and I’m going to take 10 min after my meditation time to bone up on my visualization …

Thats the plan …

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Hmm, Lets try that again shall we?

Well, as Craig pointed out in a comment on my last real post, we managed to reduce our electricity consumption by 15% during earth hour… Thats a positive thing.

I have spent the past few days reviewing the positive and negative effects in my life. I managed to remove myself from a situation recently that was negatively affecting myself more then I wanted to admit, and I’m actually quite proud that I removed myself from the situation rather then become sucked in and consumed by it (a past trend). Unfortunately, not everyone involved in this particular situation understands that, and rather then give me the benefit of the doubt, I got additional negativity… But such is life I guess.

At any rate, I’m going to try again to get the ball moving on the blogging …

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So I’m writing this from Jeff’s … I just finished helping him with his new laptop and he is cooking dinner … damn it smells good I was just informed that Jeff was looking for a blog update and hadn’t seen one so I figured that seeing as there is no time like the present, I would play a quick bit of catch up and write a short post.

You (the good people) won’t actually see it until now (Today @ 11:11), but its not that now, now .. its this now (yesterday from your perspective) … by the time you read this (now) I will have already digested the deliciousness that i can smell (now)… and if *I* re-read this it will undoubtedly remind me of the meal which I haven’t eaten yet. So is that anticipation of a future moment, or recall of a past moment, or still the same NOW moment that we all actually live in and the other types of moments only a mere figment of our imaginations?

Time is such a twisted concept sometimes (now).

Rebeka just pointed out that I always use the AM for my post … in an effort to try something new to get the blog posting going again, I think that I will switch to the PM … that will make this now (that your reading this), not the now that I had originally intended but a different now all together, the tonight now (which still won’t happen to me for another 3 or so hours) … I wonder how the difference in now will affect the illusion of time from a digestive standpoint will my re-collection of the future now while my belly is still full be that different from an illusionary point in ‘time’ when the yummy smelling food is long since passed? Thanks for the suggestion lady … we’ll see how it werks.

And Jeff … that better have been DAMN good because it feels like my stomach is going to eat itself if you don’t hurry up and finish cooking

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I figured it was time to get an update in here on the Back on Track Experiment…

Thinks are definitely moving in a forward momentum, not yet at the ‘take on a life of their own’ kinda momentum but thats coming. I can feel it. I have slacked in places, and kept my nose to the grindstone in other places, but I’m not satisfied yet with the amount of effort I have been putting in. This is A LOT of effort to keep on top of things… Some of the things in my life have totally slipped, and I’m trying to keep them afloat but haven’t managed to get them all straightened out yet.

The GTD stuff is helping but I’m not as proficient in it as I need to be, and a few times I have caught myself just changing the due date of an over due item … now thats better then forgetting about it forever, but still not getting it done. So I need to work on that Still … My Guitar playing has severally suffered in the past bit I really need to get a day of the week set up with my buddy Jeff to practice … Monday or Tuesday nights would work best.

I need to get a daily schedule running I think, something that will allow me the time to keep on top of the things I need to get done. My sleeping has been retarded lately and I need to get that under control… I think in part its the time of the year and I just don;t want to wake up… I should really start the polyphasic switch soon .. That will give me the ‘time’ i’m after.

Comments, Thoughts, Feedback … Always welcome.

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Yesterday I met up with Dylan Murray for coffee, Dylan is a great local Roots Reggae musician that Kal introduced me too, we just totally vibed off each other and we have become pretty good friends. We try to get together a few times a month just to talk about life and share introspection, It’s people like this I am most grateful for having in my life. They keep me grounded in a way that literally eliminates all self doubt and reminds me that I AM part of something greater. Dylan has this ability, as do a few other close personal friends. The trick now is holding on to that feeling so that I can be more productive and accomplish the things I want to accomplish so badly.

The flip side here is the id, or ego that we all have, mine is particularly strong in some cases and I need to do some unlearning. Far too often I become consumed by the thinking self (as Eckhart Tolle explains it), and while I do have an increasing number of present moments in my life, they are still fleeting and do not last. I need to be more present and yet I need to get so many things sorted out for the future, the ducks are all there, some are in line, most are off having a keg party that I wasn’t invited too.

At any rate … check out Dylan Murray, he is such a deep soul, you are missing out by not giving him a listen.

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