I’m so excited! some of my favorite things happen in the spring, you fell alive and full of life, the birds return, the snow melts away, little buds appear on the trees, the rain comes and makes that awesome smell of damp earth that you only get in the spring and which is only comparable to the awesome smell you get of the decaying leaves in the fall. Before you know it the weather has turned warm enough to get out on your bike, and then your in the woods coasting down a single track of hard packed earth, the sound of the june bugs buzzing in the distance, the smell of the fresh blooms filling your nose.

I love the way the world looks from a bike. I like to go for a nice long ride, slip off the trail part way through, balance a rock and contemplate the awesomeness that is the earth. I’m SOOOOO excited! … Thanks to Craig (who I WILL get out on the trails this season) I have these great Vibram Flo’s (Five Fingers) that I can’t wait to take for a bike ride again … I only got in one ride before the end of last season with them and I’m starting to go a little mental waiting to get out again. This year (about half way through the season) I would love to get last years Stump Jumper… (Last years model is always cheeper). That would be sweet…

Happy Hallmark day everyone!

Or as one of my friends referred to it, Happy singles awareness day. Personally I think that the majority of the ‘holidays’ are far too commercial, Christmas is the never ending holiday of line ups and that one hot gift that no one can find. (Kinda like Winter tires in any province except Quebec). Thanksgiving is all about the turkey, Even Ester is more about the egg hunt then the actual celebration of the Christ’s rebirth. Now don’t get me wrong, commercialism has produced one of my favorite holidays (the May 24) … Ahh the return of docks and lakes, ice cold beer in the wilderness, camping with friends in the great outdoors, setting fire to your favorite sweater, staying up super late strumming the guitar… But I digress …

Valentines day has always seemed like a bit of a crock to me, you spend one day letting the people you care about most know? Why not spend everyday letting the special people know that you think they are special? Wouldn’t that be really showing them? I am however VERY grateful for the ‘specialness’ (its a word) of the day, I had a home made meal (and my favorite meal at that) cooked specially for me (Lasagna made from scratch) followed by a homemade blueberry cheesecake for dessert that was to die for (assuming you like cheesecake as much as I do), followed up with some great dessert for dessert, dessert (if you catch my drift).

Now I’m looking forward to the 14th of March … Sex and Steak day

Well it looks like that new project is a go, Kal, Geoff, and Myself met last night for a dinner meeting and went over some details, I’m not at liberty to say what the project is or is about, but it’s a pretty good idea, if I do say so myself, and considering all the ‘good ideas’ I hear, thats actually saying something.

We will be aiming for government grant cash, but have set aside a percentage of the company that we are willing to part with for VC … (Why I’m even considering the VC route again is a little beyond me, I guess I believe in the project that much) … But Geoff is confidant that raising funds won’t be an issue, and isn’t sure we will need to do the VC thing … But time will tell the tail.

I’m excited, but need to get some sleep (even though this goes live tomorrow AM … I’m writing it now, and I should get to bed before I end up in trouble)

You can think what you like, so I try to keep it positive. I don’t always succeed, but I put in a pretty good effort … Yesterday I got to meet up with a missing colleague from a few years back, it was nice and refreshing to catch up, more so then with some people because this person is still in the midst of a whole bunch of positive people and it shows in their presence.

If you ever have the opportunity to go to a seminar on positivity … I suggest you do it.

I can feel the momentum building, I still have A LOT going on, and I’m not being nearly as productive as I need to be, but I AM improving, I am grateful for the good people that I work with and that have been so understanding so far of all the ‘stuff’ I’m dealing with. I do feel like i;m coming out of the ‘fog’ though and thats a good feeling, much better then the overwhelmed, oh gawd, stop the planet, I want off feeling that I have grown accustomed too over the past 8 months.

With some additional effort and a dash of luck, I;ll be out from under the looming soon.

The trick is to keep moving, it kinda reminds me of a phrase my mother told me… “If you’re going through hell … keep going.” and I have been, and as a result of my colleagues and friends, I have managed to not drown, and I’m grateful for that. Even better, I can feel the momentum and I know things are just going to keep getting better and better … Tomorrow’s meeting should prove insightful too … Will fill you in if and when I can.

Procrastination… it’s an art…

Being more aware of my thinking as of late, I see all of the things that I’m doing that are an actual effort on part of my brain to put things off … How strange is this? Why not just do the things and get them out of the way????

How do I unlearn this art form I have managed to pick up … I don’t want to be a procrastinator, I like getting things done, I feel GREAT when I do. so how did this happen?
Does it really matter? … That would (delving into the why of something as useless as procrastination) be just more of the same…

No more procrastinating … if you see me, remind me of this (expects to hear it from the guys at work).
I want to get things done!!!!!
Thats what I’m going to do right now … so thats it for today